Birthday baby

Emily is six months today. It's unbelievable how fast the time went by, how much she's grown and changed in such little time. After the very hard first three months with daily colics, we really have the impression now that she was not completely with us yet - which explains why they call that the missing fourth trimester.

Emily is now another baby. She is patient, curious, playful, loves to listen to music and singing (she actually sings with) and laughs a lot. She hates to lie on her stomach, but loves to sit up to watch everything around her. Her new discovery these days is doing v and b sounds all day long.

I actually cannot believe she's only been with us for six months. It's as she'd always been here.

A good day

Today is a good day. Many phone calls from friends and family members. Many emails. A very positive phone interview for what could be the perfect job in Zurich. A meeting with the dressmaker this afternoon. A nice dinner at a Lebanese restaurant tonight with M.

It feels like if my luck could be turning at last with my 33rd birthday.

Moi aussi j'ai craqué

Yes I was against it. I refused to buy an mp3 or ipod, as it was my way to rebel against the industry not agreeing on one standard-fit-all format. But boy am I happy with my brand new ipod nano, birthday present from M. I can't help but feel 'so cool' with it ;-) Et oui, moi aussi j'ai fini par craquer! One more down. And counting.

Saturday night

We all celebrated M's belated birthday Saturday night. 'We all' meaning M, his entire family (parents, uncles, aunts, cousins, grandmother, sister, nephews), and me. It was nice to see all these generations together around a big table, simply drinking, talking, having dinner. For the first time, I felt comfortable. It was great to be part of this big family, with its history and problems, qualities and defaults. Of course I wasn't able to say everything I wanted, given my limited German. But I did my best. And listened and smiled.

I was however a bit disappointed at M and the way he acted that night. Nothing big, but certainly a side I had never seen and I did not expect. A sort of selfishness. Which he quickly eluded when I brought up the subject. Which is now making me think twice about our temporary solution. Because it implies commitment and big changes mostly for me.