Just two days ago, I was so eager and ready to give birth that I was willing to try to provoke labor. Through old tricks like drinking 120 ml of castor oil. I am glad today that I didn't try that. Don't ask me why, but I suddenly see everything differently. With calm and patience. I feel zen. Let the baby come whenever she's ready. Let life follow its course. Which still means I'd be happy not to have to wait 12 days till the due date, as I can't wait to hold her in my arms.